Okay so I forgot to Let Go for the past couple of weeks. It's crucially important to my mental state that I be able to just expel hurt and anger and make the conscious decision not to allow it to hurt me- especially when I'm all ready over reacting to something trivial.
My prime example of this was tonight. I've been having issues at work for the last couple of weeks. No one there who knows me is particularly surprised. I get into moods where I simply hate certain individuals that I work with. It's not often and usually I don't hold grudges but I have been really edgy lately. Particularly with my General Manager. I actually really like her. She's a pretty cool person. She also hasn't fired me. Lots of opportunities. She can't fault my work but when I swear angrily and then walk off the job... well... yeah. That is grounds. Especially when it happens every couple of months.
A huge pet peeve is being disrespected. No, I'm not perfect and I'm not the best, but I am not the worst and I deserve to be treated like an equal rather than a slave. ASK me to do something and I will. Tell me, and then yell at me about it and I'll either just soak it in and let it fester, and rot, or I'll just explode because that will be the straw that breaks the camels back. That happened tonight. I almost quit my job on the spot. It would have been a really, really, horrible decision. Thankfully my employer understands I get like that but still... it is ridiculously unprofessional and I need to learn how to productively deal with my anger and frustrations. A job is a job, but I need to start addressing issues as they come up!
End of rant. Thank you. Good night.